Thursday, September 18, 2014

Counting Down!

9 weeks 4 days, or 67 days until our sweet girl makes her debut! (unless she decides to come early!)

Callie has been sharing her baby sister's name with everyone, although I am still hesitant about announcing it to the world via social media. Our close friends and family, and some work people know her name. I love it. Of course, Steve chose, AGAIN. I guess I don't get to name my children. LOL!

The third trimester hasn't been my favorite so far. I feel super complainy, but I'm just downright exhausted. And puffy. And uncomfortable. And frustrated I can't do things that I just did 2 weeks ago. And it's SO much harder to feel this way with a toddler at home.

29 WEEKS

Total Weight Loss/Gain: +33lbs (whatever, it is what it is)

Maternity Clothes: Yes, everyone notices the bump before me these days

Stretch marks: I think I've added a couple more! :(

Sleep: More please.

Movement: LOTS & LOTS and I'm loving it!

Cravings/Aversions: SALT!!! and fresh fruit, aversions to some meat

Gender: Baby Girl :)

Symptoms: Sleepy, sensitive breasts, round ligament pain, emotional, Heartburn

What I miss: lunch meat and sushi.

What I look forward to: my OB appt next week, and our ultrasound on the 7th

Moods: Generally good, a bit cranky

Milestones: 3rd trimester!

Medical concerns: None. No hematoma. No general concerns. :)

Thursday, September 11, 2014

All About Callie, at age 2



What can I say? She is such a joy! She is inquisitive, and bright. She is so much fun, and much smarter than I think. She can name most colors, primary and including pink and purple. She LOVES the water, being on it, being in it, the bath. "Daddy's Boat" is one of her favorite topics. She also is obsessed with school buses, and dinosaurs.

Her giggles crack you up. At this point she is showing her own signs of affection randomly without prompts. Kisses, hugs, I love yous. I'm soaking it up.

We recently took her to the dairy farm and she loved it. Especially the ice cream at the end!



Her favorite place to visit is "Grandma's Beach" she loves playing in the sand, jumping in the waves, she loves that Grandma always has a bowl of "toe-tay-dos" since they are her favorite snack. She's loved tomatoes since the womb!



We are in potty training mode, although there have been bumps. She is not willing to slow down long enough to tell us when she has to go. She also does not mind being wet or stinky, AT ALL! Every time we put her on the potty, however, she goes. And if you catch her "poop face" she will go #2 on the potty as well.

Her favorite thing to do outside besides go to the playground is to play her "baseball game" or jump in puddles. Wherever she is going these days, she seems to be jumping there. She also has quite the throwing arm! Steve thinks she's going to be quite the ball player. I can't wait for her to be old enough for tee ball next year!



There are hurdles though. We can't seem to drop the pacy. She is SO attached. We tried one night and after 3 hours of crying we gave in. We haven't been brave enough to try again. She is a whiner in the mornings. She likes to whine/cry before she'll just ask nicely. Which I know is part of the age. She hasn't learned patience yet, AT ALL. But we are constantly working on it. We pick our battles.

She adores her daddy. The smile on her face when she sees him is wonderful to witness. If she notices his truck in the driveway she gets super excited "Daddy's home! Daddy's home! C'mon Mom, lets go!" (Let me just add, this whole MOM thing makes me sad, where did Mommy go? She's only 2!!!)

She is very polite. She will ask please, say thank you, say excuse me. I'm glad we've taught her manners so well, people compliment us all the time about it.

We are working on our meal time prayer. She doesn't like to do it at home, but never fights it at school. And her sign of the cross is super cute and hilariously wrong. She'll get there. Papa would be so proud!



My silly little love bug! I can't wait to see what the future has in store. How she adapts to being a big sister. What kind of person she'll be. I can't even imagine loving someone more than her, and now I'll get to expand my love to two wonderful little girls!


Tuesday, September 2, 2014

Welcome to the 3rd trimester

Can you say HOLY CRAP!!!???!!!?? Like I have 12 weeks left until this little girl makes her debut! WOAH!

This pregnancy has flown by, and now we are rounding out to the last few months.

Baby girl's entrance is scheduled for 11/24/14. Unless she decides to come earlier (Stay in there cooking baby!)

I am really hoping this date sticks for a few reasons

1. It is a Monday :) Steve, Callie and I were all born on Mondays
2. There is a 4 in the date. Steve and I are both the 4th and Callie is the 14th.
3. I'm a huge nerd!

Because we are doing a repeat c-section, why not plan it. And it just happens to work out that I'll be 39 weeks on the day, so perfect timing.

My last day of work is planned for Halloween. Then I'll have 3 weeks to rest up and get the finishing touches ready for her arrival.

In Callie news, she is just growing in leaps and bounds. At 2 years and 3 months, she can count to 15, name most colors, sing songs, speak full sentences, understand 3 part directions. She is independent and deserves a blog all about her. I am thrilled to be raising this sweet, precocious little girl. She will be an awesome big sister! I am so excited to see how their relationship thrives.



27 WEEKS

Total Weight Loss/Gain: +29lbs at my ob appt last week (too much! Oh wells)

Maternity Clothes: Yes, the bump hath arrived

Stretch marks: Just the ones from Callie

Sleep: More please.

Movement: LOTS & LOTS and I'm loving it!

Cravings/Aversions: Morning sickness!! AGAIN??? SALT!!! and fresh fruit, aversions to some meat

Gender: Baby Girl :)

Symptoms: Sleepy, sensitive breasts, round ligament pain, emotional, Heartburn

What I miss: lunch meat and sushi.

What I look forward to: our ultrasound October 7th

Moods: Generally good, a bit cranky

Milestones: 3rd trimester

Medical concerns: None. No hematoma. No general concerns. :)

Wednesday, August 20, 2014

Less than 100 days to go....

Our baby girl will arrive in less than 100 days. 95 to be exact (unless she decides to come early) 3 months away. I can't believe how fast this seems to be flying by! My biggest miss is of course a beer or glass of wine (I don't partake in the every once in a while is ok deal while pregnant)

We have chosen her first name, but haven't quite settled on a middle yet. If you ask Callie on the rare chance, she may even tell you her baby sister's name.

My big girl came to visit me at work a couple weeks ago:




25 WEEKS

Total Weight Loss/Gain: +20lbs at my ob appt last week (right on track she says)

Maternity Clothes: Yes, the bump hath arrived

Stretch marks: Just the ones from Callie

Sleep: More please.

Movement: LOTS & LOTS and I'm loving it!

Cravings/Aversions: SALT!!! and fresh fruit, aversions to some meat

Gender: Baby Girl :)

Symptoms: Sleepy, sensitive breasts, round ligament pain, emotional, Heartburn

What I miss: lunch meat and sushi.

What I look forward to: the glucose screening next week

Moods: Generally good, a bit cranky

Milestones: Viability!! (since I'm writing this one a little late)

Medical concerns: None. No hematoma. No general concerns. :)

Friday, August 8, 2014

Viability

Well almost.....2 more days

But this is the point where I somewhat relax. I know if this little cricket decides she wants out of her cozy place, medical intervention will be done to help her survive. I know the likelyhood of her survival is better every week she stays cooking in there, but if she were to come now there is a chance for her to stay with us.

I think being an infertile brings these milestones to a forefront. We fought so hard for these babies to exist, we relax knowing if our bodies fail (which we know they do sometimes) medicine, technology and God can help.

Today I am 23w6d, and by her "activity" I know we have a little fiesty girl in there!


23 WEEKS

Total Weight Loss/Gain: +20lbs at my ob appt last week (right on track she says)

Maternity Clothes: Yes, the bump hath arrived

Stretch marks: Just the ones from Callie

Sleep: More please.

Movement: LOTS & LOTS and I'm loving it!

Cravings/Aversions: SALT!!! and fresh fruit, aversions to some meat

Gender: Baby Girl :)

Symptoms: Sleepy, sensitive breasts, round ligament pain, emotional, Heartburn

What I miss: lunch meat and sushi.

What I look forward to: the glucose screening in a couple weeks

Moods: Generally good

Milestones: Viability!! (since I'm writing this one a little late)

Medical concerns: None. No hematoma. No general concerns. :)





Tuesday, July 29, 2014

I had the best intentions

Being a 21st century mother is like being thrown to the wolves. Wolves who are, for all intents and purposes, “peanut free, organic, cloth diapering” ladies in clothes purchased from Lands End and adorned in jewels, not worth thousands of dollars, but handmade “one of a kind” from your favorite Etsy shop or origami owl distributor. It’s a billion dollar market, and growing. I am guilty, at times, of being one of these wolves. I am human after all, and my eyes always sparkle at a good deal. I’m not above judgment of others. After all God did not make us infallible.

Becoming a mother was much more than giving birth one warm and sunny morning in May . It was a process. A process I had a very long time to fantasize about. I would sit in our spare bedroom and wonder what our future held. Would He answer our long awaited prayer, or were we going to be just a couple instead of a family. I had plans for my future children if there were to ever be any. And I voiced those plans and opinions proudly. Often to the chagrin of my friends and family who had all been mothers for quite some time.

In the late summer of 2011, our prayers were answered. We were pregnant. Our first child was imminent. Due the following spring. The pregnancy was wracked with drama. High risk, weeks of bedrest, bleeding for much of the pregnancy, and ER trips. During these long mundane days of bed rest I would (when I wasn’t worried half sick about her making it to this world) plan what kind of mother I was going to be. I looked at examples of mothers whom I deem successful at parenting in my own family. My mother and sister. I read all the books. Joined all the websites. I would plan all the experiences we were going to have as a family and as mother and daughter.

The first of these experiences I wanted was natural child birth. My 22 week appointment threw this plan out the window. The hematoma was not healing, my daughter would be born via c-section.

The second was I was absolutely going to exclusively breast feed. Thirty minutes after my daughter was born (full term to the surprise of our doctor and ourselves) I had her fresh newborn mouth attached to what I hoped was flowing breast milk. How naïve was I! After two days I was still getting very little production, so we needed to supplement. After two weeks, with a poor latch, cracked bleeding nipples and little to no production at all, my breast feeding days were over.

Third, I planned to make her baby food myself and only feed her nutritious healthy foods. Organic veggies and meats. This was also wracked with failure. I work fulltime and it cost more and made me spend more time trying to make it, then just being able to build quality time with my daughter. We started purchasing baby food. I didn’t plan on giving my daughter hotdogs, fail. I didn’t plan on giving her fruit snacks, another fail. No candy or pop, although rare she has still had both.

Fourth, I was going to find other ways than TV to stimulate my child. I was going to follow the recommendation of no screen time. HUGE FAIL. Sometimes a mom needs to make dinner without a cranky toddler at her feet, or take a shower, or make a phone call….etc…

And the result of all of my “failures” ? A perfectly healthy toddler. A happy toddler. A smart toddler. A toddler who questions my authority, who teases her dog, who runs to her Daddy arms wide open giggling in anticipation of scratchy beard kisses!

How to I celebrate this?

By deciding that maybe, since our “failures” turned out so amazingly, not perfectly perfect, to become parents for the second time.

Another little girl is on her way, miraculously created the first month of trying (again to the surprise of our doctor and us). Busy with a 2 year old, there’s no time to contemplate what kind of mother I’ll be this time. I just am. I’m a mother, with all of my imperfections, all my failures and flaws. It’s such a blessed life and I wouldn’t trade it for anything.

Friday, July 25, 2014

The bump hath arrived

So it's become obvious to strangers that I am pregnant now, and even coworkers whom I normally don't talk to often are commenting. Asking me when I'm due and all that. Most of them are polite and say I look great. Even Callie the other night looked at me and said "mommy's big tummy!" LOL! I feel large and bloated. I feel like she sits really low. When I sit at my desk I am starting to feel my belly sit on the top of my legs. lol. No complaints though. I'm still feeling pretty good, except for the FIRE THROAT (heartburn) which has kicked up already. This girl will probably have a full head of hair like her sister.

I'm so curious to know what she will look like. Will she have her daddy's blue eyes like Callie, will she have my nose, will she have red hair like her Auntie Rachael and Grandma (I'm kind of hoping on this one). There are no more planned ultrasounds for her so it's all going to be a surprise at this point.

I'm also excited for Callie's role as a big sister to develop. She knows there's a baby in mommy's belly, and she kisses my tummy and says "nuh night baby tummy" She's very intrigued by babies, so I'm excited for her to have a sibling.

We are in the midst of potty training and we've have some very exciting leaps and bounds this week. Callie went on the potty 5 times yesterday, the most EVER. I hope we are done with diapers before Cricket gets here. He's to wishful thinking.


21 WEEKS

Total Weight Loss/Gain: +18lbs according to my home scale (UGH!)

Maternity Clothes: Yes, the bump hath arrived

Stretch marks: Just the ones from Callie

Sleep: More please.

Movement: LOTS & LOTS and I'm loving it!

Cravings/Aversions: SALT!!! and fresh fruit, aversions to some meat

Gender: Baby Girl :)

Symptoms: Sleepy, sensitive breasts, round ligament pain, emotional, Heartburn

What I miss: lunch meat and sushi.

What I look forward to: My 22 week appt on Monday

Moods: Generally good

Milestones: Anatomy Scan. She looks perfect as can be!

Medical concerns: None. No hematoma. No general concerns. :)