Tuesday, June 7, 2011

VENT-ilator

Sorry this will be a bit of a venting post. I am just a little upset, and I shouldn't let it bother me but it is. My awesomely wonderful sister Rachael would tell me to let it go and don't worry/fret about it. But it bothers me. I will not go into to many details as this is a public blog and I do want to protect some right to privacy.

I have a person in my life who over the last several months (if not years) has continued to disappoint me over and over. I'm thinking it's time to just cut my losses and move on, but at the same time I really want this person to know how bad they've hurt my feelings. She has been my stepsister for 19 years, and at one point in time I had thought we had bonded. Over the last few months circumstances has presented themselves for her to be more present in not just my life but the rest of our family too. She let me down once with a super lame excuse and I let her know that it bothered me. In fact I kind of went off on her and hung up the phone. I'm not proud of that, but I was stressed and frustrated and felt abandoned by her. I quickly apologized, but she's never felt my wrath before so I'm sure it took her by surprise.

Now here is my second injury. She had stated that she was going to attend my IVF fundraiser. I said "Great you'll finally get to see my house!" (which is about 3 miles from her, and we've lived here 3 years already and she's never once came by, even after SEVERAL invitations) She never showed or called. I wasn't too surprised. I wrote it off. No biggie, right?! But then, to add insult to injury, I see on her facebook yesterday how involved she was in another fundraiser just this past weekend and what a huge help she was! To me this seems like a slap in the face! She couldn't even bother to attend mine yet, she helped someone else SO much! We are supposed to be FAMILY.

I'm hurt. I should be used to this by now. But hurt feelings are hurt feelings and I can't help it.

2 comments:

womb for improvement said...

Tough one. I would be inclined to slowly and quietly break ties - but then I avoid confrontation at all costs (which isn't necessarily a good thing).

womb for improvement said...

Tough one. I would be inclined to slowly and quietly break ties - but then I avoid confrontation at all costs (which isn't necessarily a good thing).