Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Crossing into unknown waters

This past month has been a series of new things that I've never experienced before. Some very very wonderful, and some not so wonderful (but good in pregnancy terms!) So much is changing. Although when I'm feeling normal and like myself its hard to think I'm even pregnant at all, and then 10 minutes pass and I yawn and feel nauseated and things are ok again. I woke up with a terrible migraine Saturday, so I went to the ER since it was closest to my house. They gave me Benadryl and Zofran. I did NOT like the way the Benadryl made me feel. They gave me a strong dosage in an IV and it was terrible, the nurse's lack of bedside manner didn't help either. I was by myself, feeling really strange and not in control which made me panic a little and all she kept telling me was "It will go away." The panic or the medication caused some pretty severe cramping so I had an ultrasound also. I only got to see the baby for about 5 seconds, but it was still awesome. Baby was measuring 5 days ahead at 8weeks, 5days and had a heartbeat of 157.

Speaking of feeling not so wonderful, I have learned some tricks to keep the nausea at bay which is wonderful, but not so great for gaining weight (according to my home scale I'm up 3lbs, uh oh). I have only had to pay a visit to the porcelain god about 5 times, which I'm thinking isn't too bad and I pat myself on the back every day I make it through. My trick is to eat, all the time, constantly, all day long. I am NOT this person so its hard to force food in my face when I'm not really hungry and I'm definitely feeling sick. But it does help. So now I constantly have something in my purse. Most of the time it's a Ziploc baggie of frosted mini wheats. I can't do saltines, they do not help.

It's so strange to think of myself as pregnant. I am just so excited and anxious. We have wanted this for so long. I don't feel any less infertile than I did a month ago. My mind entertains all sorts of different scenarios for this pregnancy and how we would handle it if something did go wrong. I think this is my subconscious trying to protect my heart. Preparing itself for the worst case scenario like all the other months when we got a BFN so I wouldn't be so heartbroken. It never did work.

I have my first OB appointment today. I am excited. I have never been to the OB part of the OBGYN's office. Another new territory. I have a list of questions I want to ask. First regarding the flu shot. I have heard that pregnant women should get one, but I've never had one before. Do you have any thoughts?

****EDIT I jinxed myself. Already been pukey twice today. At least I have my appointment to look forward too :)


Rebecca said...

I got so excited reading this!!! That's great news that you are back to the regular OB!! Can't wait to hear all about your appointment :)

Faith said...

Ah yes, it all sounds so familiar. I ate all day long my entire first tri and most of my second tri. I had snacks with me at ALL times. When we went to visit Jackson's birthparents, it was a 3 hour drive and I rode with Jackson's birthfather and our social worker and I had 5 different snacks and just rotated them the whole car ride. They must have thought I was crazy, but how else could I keep from feeling like absolute crap? It'll go by fast, so try to just soak it all up:). And don't worry about weight gain, baby needs it!

The flu shot is a very personal decision. Every medical professional will tell you to get it. I chose not to, I couldn't bear the risk. I decided if I was going to get it, I would only do it after the baby hit the age of viability. When that time came, I still decided not to. I felt the risk of the flu was too small for me to risk negative side effects from the shot. But, like I said, every mommy has to choose for herself and her baby.

Good luck at the OB - yay:)!